A sequel to Into the Deep
Tears welling in azure eyes
you recited your amorous soliloquy
I bathed in the water of your emotion
permitted myself to rest
to be soothed
At long last
You proclaimed my imperfections endearing
My scars — badges of honor
You aspired to be my person
To travel — to battle — alongside
But when the veil of infatuation lifted
and love’s bounty could truly be discovered
You cowered — deserted
too feeble to exert the effort
Starstruck by serendipity
I had envisioned the beauty in our future
a path to strengthen our union
Did you not trust our relationship to withstand?
Or did you simply become apathetic?
At what point did admiration fall to disregard?
I showered you with tokens of affection
now my last
You sang my praises
Lulled me with sweet nothings
the enchanted fool
was enthralled by your music
Captivated by your siren’s song
I lowered my shields
Allowed you to see the wounds
residing in my soul’s abyss
immersed for a decade
concealed from view
by warrior’s armor
When did our treasure begin to tarnish?
Why carelessly lay waste my self-respect?
Or are you oblivious to your actions’ aftermath?
Masquerading as my beloved
you celebrated with my family
Camouflaging your discontent
with flattery and lies
Buoyed by false affirmation
I sailed hope’s waters
Swept up on a promise
A doomed flight of fancy
Was I always your dirty little secret?
You couldn’t admit
even to yourself?
Once again battered and broken
submerged by my own tears
The suffocating weight plummets me
into the deep
Originally published in P.S. I Love You @Medium.com